Blood In My Quill

Sails walks through the woods , writing as he loses more blood .  

I just write things because i like to write , but as much as i can criticize chaos , i am definitely someone chaotic when it comes to writing , i just don't like to stick to a plan , and this is a huge bad thing , this is a weakness , but maybe , just maybe , it is something that is good in a way after all . 

writing can take so many different natures , it is a form of art after all , one that isn't very seen those days in my opinion , oh well , who am i to say that?

i could literally say , that Sails is saying all this , and thus it becomes fiction. I am bleeding out , and the cold is torturing me. You may wonder why i spoke about writing. 

Oh i don't know , i just felt like it really , i feel like dying , i vomited near the walls , they kicked me into the forest , i sat near a tree , i could see the lights of the village who banned me. This wouldn't be the first time I'd get rejected , it's just , somethings just happens , somethings can hurt . But at the end of the day we need to move on and fight on , we need to break chaos , we need to tame it , in order to survive . Heels does not understand that making a point comes to a price , she just wants to survive , and i don't blame her. But why live if i live in a lie? i don't want to live under any roof where lies are told by me and others , i left the surface because the underground was a refuge from all those society masks that everyone wears , that everyone tries to keep on as much as they can.

i discovered true freedom when i was alone in my room. Now i am alone again , with only me as responsibility, Heels left , i don't even understand why. 

I am a man who is tired of my own morals and ethics , i am , truly. I am sick of being against this mask , but it needs to be done , because i am more of an idea then a person , i am a thought in liberty's mind , i am the will of the brave , i am the arrogance of the fighter, i am Sails , i am the wind that transports you to a world of love. I should not die here , and i will press myself as i did million times before , i shall walk to the balanced land , the one that i built , the unfished art piece that awaits me in all it's glory. 

Call me egoistical , but I Am Sails and you are not , therefore I understand what my words are and you do not , even if you analyze every word , what makes you think i meant them?

many think of me as a prince without a crown , a knight without honor , a man without confidence , but deep inside I understand who I am , to a point that i cannot describe it. I am a writer before being a leader.

i have been punished by a Woman that wanted to survive , that wanted to save me , I  have been left to die by the one who helped me . I am not broken , but i am wiser , i cannot leave our city , for it is my symbol , the symbol of endurance , the symbol of righteousness , for even if my blood will leave my body , my words shall remain.

and those words will protect the ones that are sensible , the ones that believe in goodness , the ones that know purity. 

I don't know what i am writing , i am dizzy , but i shall walk on and on in this desert forest , until i see flags that would shelter me , or a beast that would end my story. 

however God , gave me a second chance , for after days , a quill to write  was given to me , by the enemy of this selfish Queen. 

For any who reads this , i am not someone who gives up , i don't want to be this person , I've done it time and time again but i shall not break this time on my goal no i shall not , because i am someone who will overcome this beast , no , erasing my words will not kill me ,demon , beast , or whatever you are . 

i am not scared of the curse upon me for years , since my leadership started in this city , no monster , i shall not break my quill so you can  smirk at my failure and laziness  my words shall never be silenced , i am the face of freedom , i am the symbol of battle , you are weak , and i shall break you to pieces as i keep writing and keep on destroying the emotions of me being tired , and lazy , i am not that. I bleed on paper , the scar on my leg is nothing but an obstacle , i shall not rest , nor shall i be silenced , the ink is the bloodshed of your massacre , i am a man with a goal , i am a person with a dream , and this dream shall not falter under any circumstances , no , never , come at me BRO , in the summer where the sun burns my skin , or in the winter where i shall tremble without stopping , but my ambition shall protect me , my love to writing shall continue , even if i don't have the hands to continue to do so, for i am an artist in my soul and not in my heart , for the artist is someone with no heart , but is pure soul , something that many shall not understand , an artist is the creativity that made rivers of magical knowledge , you think you can break me? never , you shall not be the victor again.

i am unbroken , i am not seduced , i am a man with a strong soul , a soul that has learned , and taught , you are nothing because i made you nothing , and you are weak , because i made you weak , and this is where you belong .

Evil Thoughts leave my head for there is no battle there that you shall survive . The light inside me shall burn , the Void in the heart shall stun you , and my soul Shall devour you. You are not breaking me , because i am breaking you. And You are making me stronger , Idiot..

Finally , Sails gets up from his chair near the fireplace , he sees blood coming from his head , but nothing hurts him , and there is no opening , the blood just came out of nowhere , but deep inside , he knew where it came from , it came from the battle that he fought on this paper and inside him , killing the monster hiding in all of us , the one that brings us down , the one that humiliates us , the one that wants to destroy us , the one that doesn't believe in us , the one that doesn't believe in happiness , nor in good people , the one that doesn't forget , trust ,or forgive , and this abomination is us. We need to all have this battle when we want to accomplish something , and we shall never falter. 

For you are the guardian as well as the thief.

For you are the lover as well as the cheater.

For you are soldier as well as the coward.

Kill the Monster ,he wrote as he ended his note , ready to be read by all who wishes it to understand it

Thank You

-Signed Sails.

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